I need to satisfy this rage within me

Sometimes I just start hating. Its not cuz I am trying to be funny, its because on a daily basis I file so much shit away in my brain, that when something or someone's actions provoke me, its usually quite impossible to get me to stop hating. It can be done, but in general, it is recommended that such an intervention should only be tried if you have intoxicants for me to consume. Otherwise, it is usually better to let the phase ride out and then I shall be my old self again, filing shit away all day long until someone else pisses me off.

See, the thing is that I stopped getting angry at people a long time ago. I'm not much of a confrontationist. If you do something bad to me, I'll just lose respect for you, probably call you on it just to let you know why I am mad, and then proceed to ignore you, forever. Once I lose respect for someone, its usually very hard for that person to get back in my good graces. If I feel like having good graces, that is.

So there is this rage within. I don't know where it arises from. Perhaps it is a product of my personality, perhaps it is the fact that despite my begging, I never had a Playstation, Sega or Nintendo. Maybe its because I never got to wear real Levis till I could shell out for it with my own dollars. It could really be anything in my life that has led me to this state of anger. And, you see here is conundrum, is this anger? Cuz right now I am pretty calm. I have been calm for days, but I feel this river simmering inside me, perhaps its bile, I'm not a doctor, but to me it feels like a hot puff of smoke just waiting for its opportnity to escape outwards.

Hate is a strong word. I don't think people lay the same weight on words as they used to, when coincidentally, there were far fewer words. Words like sorry, love, and hate are thrown around with no consequence- but I am using it carefully. I use it carefully because I realise that I hate. There are somethings in this world that I just plan old hate. Now there are also things that I love, you know. I mean I love a LOT of things in life, in fact I surround myself with what I love to drown out the hate. But the one thing you cannot do is drown other people out, cuz if done correctly, it could land you in court. And it is people that are object of my hate most of the time. More specifically, stupid people. God I hate stupid people!

I am going to have to live with this rage, atleast until genetic engineering can make it standard for every baby to be born with a high IQ. There is another option however, which is partly the reason I am writing this entry, the option is that you all, as in the whole world, if you all could just close your eyes for about 5 minutes, I'd like to see how many dumb, stupid people I can kill in 5 minutes.

I do not do this for myself, because as I have explained I have a system for handling my rage, but I do his for thebetterment of us all- a mass extermination of dumb people. Not people that are ill or have psycistric issues mind you, but people who are healthy, free-thinking humans that still do dumb shit. I would like to have a go at them. Just takes 5 seconds to ponder the notion. Ok, I'll tell you what, pick someone you want whacked, and I'll take care of it in the five minutes, no extra cost- I'll do it for free, cuz thats just how good a guy I am.

Think about it.