beyond raging waves

I sit here browsing the web for blogs, and on comes Outkast thumping in my ear- meoldious sounds that instigate thoughts buried deep in the recesses of my brain.

I feel uneasy right now. I have much to say, but I feel that I am being weak by espressing them. I know its stupid to feel this way, but its how I feel. there is so much I want to write, say and yell about but am unable to. There's enough of a distance between me and my friends now to not be able to email them about every time I feel insecure, everytime I don't know what to do.

Don't get me wrong, I feel arrite. Life is ok, but I' unsatisfied. Its strange how one day you've buried everything away, and then a slow trickle of thoughts turns into a gush of water- strange, agonizing and indescribeable.

Why did I even start this post if I was just going to beat around the bush?