why don't you find a nice girl..?

As expected, everyone wants to get me engaged. My cousins, girls that are younger to me, that were mere kids when I last leftwant to see me get married. They all keep telling me how amazing it would be and how much they want me to choose a girl. its funny cuz I've had these same conversations with my mom but she gave up on me so long ago that I have not been subjected to such banter for years.

Although I am already sick of it, I can't imagine getting mad at my cousins and aunts- they mean well. I just can't get through to them that it won't br happening anytime soon. Just the mention of the age of the thirty four as a marrying age, extracts numerous prayers to Allah and his angels to change my mind.

My grandmas keep dropping hints about girls that are good looking and still available. Its really cute of them, but it just ain't gonna happen.I have to get my own life straight before I set about making someone else's a living hell. Plus, I have an odd uncofortability (call me crazy!) with getting married to a someone for life after having spent only a few hours with them
for the first time. Thats just not my cup of tea.