I'm leaving on a jet plane.. soon enough.

Today was a pretty important day without being monumental. Today I went ahead and booked my ticket out of Canada. I've been talking about leaving for so long that it actually feels pretty strange to be buying a ticket just now. But I'm really happy. On the other hand, this sinking feeling has started to seep through that I am really leaving. This is my world now and I'm gonna be really sad to leave it. My home, my city, my friends and almost everything I have known as an adult is here and to be walking away from it all is not only daunting, its saddening.

Its been 9 years since I last travelled. I think I am actually scared of getting on a plane. But its gonna be fun. I've been waiting for this for a long time. I can't wait to visit the middle east and Pakistan. I haven't seen my extended family in soo long. After what happened this summer, its time to count my blessings and revel in the love of loved ones.

I'm gonna miss the Maple Leafs. I'm gonna miss Mary Jane. I'm gonna miss my friends a lot. I'm gonna miss all the things I can do in Canada. Like wear shirts that have swear words on them. Or shirts that declare that asthma is sexy. Or oggle at girls. Watching hockey.

This country has been so wonderful to me. I don't consider myself a Pakistani anymore. I am proud of my origins, but I am a Canadian. This country has seeped into my conciousness and I believe it will be part of me forever- even if I never come back. Oh yeah, that might be cuz of that pesky $32,000 student loan. Which by the way I spent on a Political Science degree that served to do nothing else but re-enforce my Canadian attitudes.

I will miss this place. But I am looking forward to the future. Looking forward to Paris, Doha and so many other places that are anxiously awaiting my arrival. I hope that I get to come back here. But for now, I can't wait to leave.