post-hospital

i'm sick of people treating me special now that i'm out of hospital. i've heard enuff condescending high pitched "how are yous?" for a fucking lifetime and i'm starting to wonder if I made the right decision by saying i'd stick around till spetember and see all teh folks in hamilton before i head out for dubai. Yet I have told a few people specifically (esp. the 112 krew) that I would stick around to meet them before I go. I guess in a way, meeting even one or two who people who treat me the same way as they did before will make up for the oodles of other who are treating me differently.

what i crave most these days is the times I had with my friends when shit wasn't hitting the fan in my life and now if even that eludes me, i don't know what to turn to. its really wierd because I know they are concerened, but don't treat me like a kid please. I was sick, I'm better now... thanx for the concern and the prayers.. can we please fucking move on? I need to deal with this... i am dealing with it.. the best my friends can do is be there for me. Maybe I'm looking at it comepletely wrong, cuz as much as I have been thru something.. so have they - they nearly lost a friend.