I am a straight forward person. I don't beat around the bush often and I really don't like people who do. I try to live my life as openly as I can. But, I just can't bring myself to say soemthing to someone I should have said a long time ago. I want to. But, I can't. The repercussions will be too extreme. I migth lose them forever. Or I migth not. It is a chance I am afraid to take. Too scared. Scared is the word. I know.. I'm too scared. That's what it comes down to. I don't have the guts to go up to the person and tell them how I feel. Who would have thought I would ever flounder around with words.. not be able to say what I had on my mind...

But it has happened... and worse yet, it's been happeneing for a year...

How then.. can I blame them for moving on..? Especially since they are oblivious to my internal turmoil..

fuck...